48 hours later

It's now been 48 hours since CPS came and took the kids, and I've eaten very little, or done much of anything, except hang around the house.  Believe it or not, it's too quiet around here.  No little feet running around, no calls for Daddy or Mommy, and I feel like there's a hole in my heart.  I guess I could even be a little depressed.  I miss the children so much, and I just don't have the desire to do anything.

Earlier today, I took a short walk, and came back home, but now I'm just sitting and staring at the computer.
My lovely wife went to run her sister home, and was mad at me because I didn't want to go.  I thought that by now, she'd know me well enough to know that when I'm feeling this way, I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.

I think the thing that bothers me the most is, that CPS said it would be 24-48 hours, and I haven't heard a single thing from the investigator at all, since the case workers came and took the kids.  I consider it to be deliberate indifference.  If your policies call for 48 hours, that means that even if it's a weekend, you do your investigation and go talk to the parents that you've just blown apart.  If I worked for CPS, I'd do it right then, so I could get it out of the way.  But then, that's just the way I'd do it.  I guess some people only have this, "I work 8 hours a day, and don't do weekends," kind of mentality.

Wife said that when we get the kids back;  She is hopeful, I'm sitting on the fence between hoping and having the feeling that we won't get them back; she is turning in her 4 weeks notice to her boss.  I've always told her she could quit her job and raise the kids.   She went and cleaned out one of the kids backpacks and found dirty underwear.  It seems that the oldest one had an accident at school and daycare didn't tell us about it, nor did they rinse out the underwear, so my wife is understandably ticked off at daycare,and I don't blame her.

I just want the kids back, it just doesn't feel the same without them.